im crying

u make me LAUGH
u make me CRY

who u would like to meet

Its not about who i like to meet.but its about WHAT i want to have.I want to have love.Love feels like being completely lost in a moment of bliss, like floating above the world, that this person is the part of you that's been missing your entire life, the melody of your soul.But i guess i will never have it.And I hate the fact that I can never hate you and the fact that I will always love you no matter what you put me through.

u already have me but u said that,
u will never have someone who will loved u?
but i do love u with all my heart
u hate the fact that u can never hate HER?
and always love HER no matter what?
i think its time for me to moved on!
im so stupid to fill my heart to love u
but u do love someone else
yeap!maybe i've been curst tht i wont be loves by someone

a real boyfriend

ANY BOY CAN BE IN A RELATIONSHIP BUT IT TAKES A MAN TO KEEP ONE.
NO! Don’t close it. Read til the end..

When she walks away from you mad
[ Follow her ]
When she stares at your lips
[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hits you
[ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she starts cursing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet
[ Ask her what’s wrong ]
When she ignores you
[ Give her your attention ]
When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared
[ Protect her ]
When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hoodie
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time
[ Reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she says that she likes you
[ She really does more than you could understand ]
When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you
[ Bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret
[ Keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ don’t look away until she does ]
WHEN SHE MISSES YOU
[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]
When you break her heart
[ The pain NEVER really goes away ]
When she says its over
[ She STILL wants you to be hers ]
When she reposts this bulletin
[ She wants you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
- DON'T let her have the last word.
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go.
- When she says she's okay don’t believe it, talk with her.
- Because 10 yrs later she'll remember you.
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Tease her and let her tease you back.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

If you do post this in the next four minutes the one you love will:

Call you.

Kiss you.

Love you.

Text you.

Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend."
Girls post as: "A real BOYFRIEND."

my fault

Hello world.. I have a confession to make..im pretty sure that I told only one person about this lie.. but I just want to make it clear.. I have been telling lies about Intan Nadiah binti Hamzah.. I told this one person that she cry when we both meet for the last time.. its totally not true.. n I tell that person a completely different story about what really happen that day.. n I have confess to her.. I confess that what ive been telling her is a lie.. I tell her that I wrote this on the sketch pad..“please let me let u go..we dnt need to cntct each othr anymre..jst let me loose as u r intended to when u break up wth me.." I did not wrote this actually.. then I tell her that Intan Nadiah follow me until I reached my block..its not true either.. the truth is she asked me to walk her to her bock n I wanted to do it.. then we talked a little bit when we reached her block.. n she didn’t even drop a tear. I DID.. huh..i know you guys will look at me like im a loser n a big fat liar.. the truth is, I WASN’T SOBER THAT EVENING WHEN I TELL ALL THE LIES IVE MADE.. I didn’t notice it until Intan Nadiah gave me a wake up call yesterday and told me everything that I wrote.. I totally in shock after hearing what I wrote that day..i swear that I didn’t even know I wrote that.. she sure give me some lesson through all this.. and Intan, u have the right to call me names yesterday coz im so damn stupid..i thank u for that.. and to all,Intan Nadiah is really a good person.. n I shouldn’t made up some ridiculous story bout her..eventhough im not sober at that time,Im still the one to blame behind all of this.. I know maybe u guys out there wont trust me anymore.. but please,im not like this..im not a person who love making lies.. I wasn’t myself when I did that.. im sorry world..n im sorry Intan..forgive me please….

i can see that u might still love her rite
if u do,poor me than
loving someone with all my heart
but his heart is not belong to me
its not tht im really angry or upset with this thing
hello?what we've promised?
we wont talk about our ex any longer rite?
its okay if u want to make a confession about this
because u barely come out and tell everyone the truth
but why do u need to put ur confession for such a long time?
i dont ever asks u to delete it
then suddenly u get mad n saying tht i dont understand u
am i the one to blame?
what do u expect me to do?
we're still a new couple bby
we dont ever meet yet!
i think there is no need to be honest after this i guess
if i get jealous or so what ever,i wont tell u!
i will keep my mouth shut!
then everything will just be fine!
and i will try my very best to understand u more after this
i will sacrifice everything to make u happy
cause i promised not to make u sad or even make u cry
cause i dont wanna lose u!
u might not even noe how much i need u for my entire life
nevermind,maybe im the one to blame!
yes.i guess it is my fault
so.im so sorry!

my study

college: sri college
course : diploma in early childhood development
2nd house:royal domain apartment
new friends:vanishya,cheryl,yazmin
mood:happy sometimes sucks

OMG!dad caught me bout uitm offer
he already noe bout the offer!
lucky me he's not angry i lied bout this
cuz he wants i pick the best course for myself
cuz its only me who noe wht is best for me!
thnxs daddy ily
i'll prove to u i'll grad with flying colours!
n will open my own centre for the next three years
insyaallah,
please pray for me :)

baby this song is for u

Kau bikin pusing tujuh keliling
Buat aku mabuk kepayang
Gayamu cool dan seksi
Mentok aku kepada kamu
Jadi semakin aku cinta

Kau sihir aku yang sedang kosong
Di saat aku butuh cinta
Mantra-mantra dahsyatmu
Menarik aku yang sendiri
Memang lagi putus cinta

Katakan-katakan kau sungguh-sungguh
Hanya ada ku di didalam hatimu
Katakan-katakan kau cinta aku
Untuk selamanya kau jadi milikku

I don't wanna lose you
Yes I wanna hold you
I don't wanna make you
Make you sad and make you cry

Oh baby baby baby (baby baby)
Oh baby baby baby (hu wuoo uoo uoo...)
Oh baby baby baby (my baby)
Oh baby baby baby (baby oh yeeah)

Oh baby baby baby (baby baby)
Oh baby baby baby (hieey hiey hieey)
Oh baby baby baby (baby baby baby)
Oh baby baby baby (uuuuuhhh)

Baby baby
Baby baby
Baby baby

Oh baby baby baby (oh baby)
Oh baby baby baby (baby)
Oh baby baby baby (oh baby baby)
Oh baby baby baby (baby baby)

by : cinta laura

im back :)

i've been away for a week ;)

hohohoho!

my 1st day at sri college was SUCKS!

i've been cheated by the STUPIDOSSSS mahendran

when i enter my class,

i can see most of the student are indian! WTF?

huhhh.im so mad n sitting between two indian gurl

hmm.then i just go through the class

as i really intended to further the course

hmm that was all just fine when i try to cope with them

UNFORTUNATELY

as i reached my apartment.. ;'(

OMG!WTF?my housemate.

majority are.... indian?

hmmmmmmm.im dying to be with those indian all the time

hmmm then i text to my beloved sis,aisya

me,aisya

sis,im crying like a pig

why?what happened?

hmm nothing

how's ur class?apartment?

SUCKS!

what?why?

emm.mahendran lied to us bbe

about what?

everything.many indians here

my classmate,my housemate majority is indian

WHAT THE FUCK? then r u okay darling?

of course im not ;(

nvm.tomorrow i will come to check everything with mummy

duhh.nvm.i'll try my very best to fix this matter

dun worry.my sadness will end!

then i text to eppy

me,eppy

boo.damn sad!

why why? what happened

my college sucks

haaaaa?what? why?

indians everywhere

nvm,be nice to them

im crying

heyyyyyy dont cry.im here for u syg

yeah.i noe.thnxs

then i text to aesh

me,aesh

aesh.. ;'(

what is wrong darling?

i dont like those indian

erk?indian?

yes.my classmate,housemate

serioussssssss?woah

im crying

hey dont cry,be strong k?

then i text beby

me,baby

beby.. ;'(

sorry honey.im at the police station

hey what???why?what happen?

ttyl.bz!

then i text tasya

but she didnt reply

the next morning.

my 2nd day

afiq texted me

me,afiq

oit,how r u?i miss u fren

yeah imyt.im not okay!last nite i cried

ha?cry?why?what happened?

nvm.don worry.im okay now

r u really sure?

yeap.dont worry.will be fine ;)

okay2.where r u?

im at hartamas.my 2nd day to college

whatttttttttt?u didnt tell me bout this

im so sorry.i've been busy with my schedule lately

nvm,i noe who i am

hey,please dont say that,u r my bestfriend okay?

so sorry for not telling u bout this

okay2.dont do it again next time k?promise?

yeap!promise! ;)

then i text to fana

me,fana

boo. ;'( imy badly

imy more!how r u?

im not okay!im with all my indian friends here

whattttttt?u didnt have any malay friend?

nope! ;'( but i have 1 chinese friend

okay.good.are they the estate type or wht

lucky me they are not smelly n they r nice to me

ouh okay!just be nice to them okay?

okay.will do.thnxs for ur concern

then we gossiping a lot

cuz long time we didnt meet n text!

will meet u some day syg ;)

hmmm.life at sri college totally different

1st time im being with indian's groupies

lucky me they are all nice

especially vanishya n delica

vanishya helped me a lot in the class

thnxs darling

hohoho not to forget,

sis yazmin n cheryl ;)

well,world.

thnxs for supporting me